Did you realise?

Everyday, in the morning.
First thing i thought of is you.
Every morning i try to talk to you.

But all you talk about is that girl.
That so ever prefect girl.
That's all you talk about.
Sometimes i really want to be that girl.
Is she that prefect?
Like what you said?
Ohhs, i don't know what to sayy..

[Chorus]
Did you realise that i loved you?
Did you realise that i missed you?
Did you realise that i loved you?
Did you realise that i loved you?

All you talk about is about that girl, that ever so prefect girl.
I wonder what she looks like?
With bright golden hair, or beautiful locks with a prefect firgure.
I too, wonder why do i care.

I always have been for you.
Your previous break ups.
Your exams, your everythinggg..

But did you knoww?
Ohhhs.....

[Chorus]
Did you realised that i loved you?
Did you realised that i missed you?
Did you realised that i loved you?
Did you realised that i loved youu..

Written by: Zina
Copyright C' Z EE N A (:

For those heartbrokens out there.
Forget that guy or girl.
You did all you can.
They are the ones who were stubborn not you.


LOVEED, Z EE N A (: that hyper zebraa.

If only i could turn back time.

"Trust in the Lord with all your hearts and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." PROVERBS 3: 5,6

I'm finding it quite hard to acknowledge Him now.
Really not in the mood.
I don't know why, but my mood swings are getting from bad to worse.
I think i'm prepared to die soon.

God! Give me the strength. Give me wisdom, i pray O God.

i think must be very worried.
Mostly insane. As the world tilts little by little i go more insane.
Everything is not in place.
I must be thinking too much.

Ahhhs, it's so sad. That i can't let go.

Why must you do this to me?
Spoiling my mood is bad enough.
Making me angry is worse. And you will regret it.

Cooling down takes time.
So can you just shut up for one momment?
It's hard enough like this.
Why must you torture me even more?
I really can't stand you anymore.
Get out of my sight now.

*GIGGLES*

Deborah: ZINNAAAAA!
Zina: Huhs?
Deborah:*Jumps around wildy* HEEHEEES!
Zina: What?
Deborah: HEEHEES! Call you for fun (:
Zina: Ehhs?
Deborah: LALALALALALAS!
Zina: Huhs?
Deborah: HEEHEHEHEHEHES! SO FUN!
Zina: What?
Deborah: TEHEHEHEHEHEES!
Zina: Ehhs?



END OF CONVERSATION;

this is lame. Yeahs, i know.
So why do i post this?
Cos it's lame.
LAMEST IS THE NEXT COOL THING! (: HAAHAAAS!
AS IF!


Z EE N A (: that hyper zebra.

WOAHS! (:

Life isnt fair. Life is fair, sometimes. Mostly not. But there is fairness in the dictionary. So it must be true (: That's so out of point. Anyways T-O-M-O-R-R-O-W no S-C-H-O-O-L!!! Yeahs! It's offically my school the school holiday (: I don't know what to blog about today. I seemed to be stuck. W-O-A-H!!! First time in my life, i have been stuck in thinking about what to talk! Okays, maybe not the first time. But it's quite shocking. Cos i was VERY VERYY HYPER TODAY! So i should be able to talk & talk right? Hmmms. HMMMMs. HMMMMS. HMMMMS!! I'm insane. Yeahs, that's the only thing i can think about. HAHAHHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHS! LOL! I played my piano not long agoo. To sort of, make myself relax. Like how some people play the guitar to relax themself. Music is so powerful, it can move a person's feeling. Or make people angry, sad, relax, happy, grateful. WOAHS! (: God is wise. And prefect, in all ways. My mum is really lame. She just came in to scold me becuase the dustbin was full. Like L-O-L! That's so.. :o HAAHAAAS! Now she's asking me. To buy dinner. LALALLALAAS! I pretend i can't hear her then. LOL i shall blast the music in my ears! (: Today's post is really short. Well, shorter then usual.

Buh Byeees (:

Your FREAKY MINDED FRIEND WHO's INSANE! (:
Z EE N A (: that hyper zebraa.

btw, i think i want to get braces soon (:

HERE ARE LIST OF THINGS THAT STRESSED ME OUT CURRENTLY.

Here are all the reasons i can think now that is making me freak out;
- Literature project. Acting and explaining some poem.
- 1 Page of LONG LONG LONG Literature homework about some lame Sea.
- Chinese teacher, so pissed off. By her. I TOLD ALREADY! THE "我" composition is not with me!
- Not able to hand up my English Show not tell worksheet.
- Personal problems
- Not able to raise enough money to buy chocolates for everyone by Valentine's
- Homework load
- Project load
- Seniors
- School?
- Friends are making me worry about them
- How will i look like in my new Ez-Link card
- Being not serious enough in school
- Not able to understand anything the teacher taught
- Geography test
- History test
- Common tests
- Vomiting day and night
- Eat panodols everyday
- I think i might die of overdose of panodols
- Having kidney cancer
- Or lung cancer
- Might fall into depression soon

THERE ARE TOO MANY THINGS THAT IS STRESSING ME OUT!
If only there was 52 hours in a day.
I would be so much less stress.
And be able to sleep more. And not fall asleep while studying.

AHHS well, there's nothing i can do about since it's fated.
I JUST HOPE THAT I GET USED TO THIS SOON!

LOVVEDDD, Z EE N A (: That hyper zebraa.

ZzzZz ZzzZz ZzzZz ZzzZz

LALAALALALALALAS!

LIFE IN SCHOOL TODAY WAS BORING YET FUN.
I know it doesn't makes sense at all, but during lessons everything was plain boring.
LIKE SERIOUSLY, B-O-R-I-N-G. Cos teachers are boring so their lessons are boring.
I SIMPLE L-O-V-E recess! HEEHEES! But as normal, the whole clique was late for class. Most of the clique was late, as some have gone up while others [me, melissa, bernita, alicia, beatrice?] went to the PL PERRREISSAA thingy. And bought some sweets to keep us awake in class! After school i went to see Ms Yuen. Or as i prefer, Joy or Caiying. Danielle have introduced me to her. As she guide me along my way in Chirst. It was great fun! Finally, someone was there to sit and listen to me blabber for about 45 mins! Normally its the another way around. Then she gave me this booklet. Written by a pastor named, Benny Ho. It's called 'BASIC PERSONAL DISCIPLING'. A tool to abiding in Chirst. Session 1 was today. And we were talking about The 5 Assurances. Ausurance of Salvation, Answered Prayer, Victory, Forgiveness and Guidance. I'm suppose to memorise 1 JOHN 5:11,12 & JOHN 16:24.
" And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. He who has the Son has life; he who does no have the Son of God does not have life."
1 JOHN 5:11,12
" Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete."
JOHN 16:24
Yeahs, so it's pretty cool. That i end of my day in prayer in school & all.
Anyways i just finished typing out Jing's notes on Geography. Ten pages of them! My hands are aching, but it's worth it! Cos common tests are like 2 weeks away. Actually on Valentine's day. So everyone have been really busy, studying and mugging & all. So SEEYA soon (:

BUH BYES.
LOVVEDD, Z EE N A (: that hyper zebraa.

THIS IS DEDICATED TO ALL THOSE WHO ARE NAMED OR NOT NAMED IN THE FOLLOWING (:

This is something who someone had inspired me to write.
Firstly, i like to thank God who made me just i'm today.
Anyways everything started during church camp, i changed alot since.
Firstly, i want to thank Rebecca, for it was her who pursued me to go for TNG camp 07' and if i didn't went for that camp it would be a total shame.
Secondly, i like to thank Clara for being in my camp group, the closest friend i had in camp. The one i bullied everyday during camp. And if it wasn't for her i wouldn't have met Danielle (: And Clara truely it have been a blessing to know you, for you had been always there for me. Listening to me blabbering away on sms & msn (: THANKS! And you are the sweetest mum i ever had!
Next i like to thank Danielle, for the was the one who changed me alot too, she made me realised. Hey! You can be smart & cool at the same time you know. And of course she brought me to Chirst. So thanks alot too Danielle! Another Blessing to my life.
Of course, i like to thank my clique for being there for me, even though many things have happened recenlty. We are still cool right! The bonkous clique FOREVER AS ONE! All rights? Here are the following people in the clique:
Rebecca; Beatrice; Bernita; Melissa; Alicia; Grace; Theresa; Amanda; Jolene; Annunciata; and those who are not named.
I like to thank Bernita & Deborah especially for Bernita was the one who made me realised that Life is worth living for & Deborah being so concern about me, and of course listening to me BLABBBBERING away in class.
I like to thank those in my TNG CAMP GROUP 07' who are the following:
Clara; Jia an; David; Joyce; Charlene; James; Timonthy; Cleo; Joseph; Nikki.
Everyone helped me in either big or small ways. But afterall they helped me alot! This is for Charlene, who always ask me over in MSN. How's everything at home? Thanks alot! And just for your info MY MUM'S GOING TO GET A JOB SOON!
Erm, i guess i think i should thank Clara & her clique too!
Here are the following:
Clara; Danielle; Amelia; Jing; Winnie; Jia yuan.
I LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE FOR HUGGING ME THAT DAY! And amelia that big bully XP, For letting me admire you! I mean of course i admire Danielle and Clara too! For everyone helped me alot in ways, even though they don't know. Just by hugging me brings me Joy and Peace in my heart. And Winnie! For being so funny over MSN! * Giggles*
I like to thank My god ma, who have always been the one i can talk to over all my years in life. She is like those people in the 'behind the scenes' telling me what to do at when. She's the one i can go to when i need someone the blabber on! So thank you too AUNTIE KARENN!! The nicest God ma i ever had.
Truely, although i hate my mum. I think there is still a need i have to thank her. For she's the one who brought me up. I mean she's was the one who paid money to hired a domestic worker to take care of me. Beating me when i'm naughty. But sometimes she's overboard. So i guess you cannot blame me for hating her?
I like to thank NGNG. My domestic worker. Or as i prefer part of my family. She's have been with me my whole life since i was 1 day old till i was 12. She left for Singapore before my PSLE. Although i felt sad, she was there. Cheering me on, helping me in my ways. So i like to thank her to. Being like a half mother to me!
I like to thank my teachers in primary school, especially Mrs. Yeo. Although she's really funny and strict. I learned alot from her, and i didn't realised it till this year. I guess i matured alot huh! [Credits to David, for telling me that i matured]
Erm, who else do i need to thank? Let's see. I guess Danielle? I mean she was the one who brought me to Chirst. So she deserves a special thank you? HAAHAAS!
OF COURSE. This is so last minute luckily i remebered! I like to thank EMO KOR! aka Andrew. Erm someone i know from Audition a game. For being such a nice kor over MSN even though i don't know you in real life. Well i haven't even seen in you in real life. But you are real nice! And thanks for bringing so much laughter into my life! Cos of all of your emo actions. Thanks!
Anyways. For those who i didn't name i trebbily SORRY~
There's is too many to name now. I mean Once again i like to Thank everyone I LOVE SOO MUCH. Even though those who gave me bad company. For not i have learned mostly what is wrong from right. But it's a youth nature right? When you say something that shouldn't be done, the more we want to do it. I guess that why we ain't prefect.
Lastly, i clearly want to thank GOD. For everything he have given me. For the blessing and the bestest sister & brother & parents in Chirst or not. For He gave me this path. And he will never abandon me no matter what happens. And i Believe, that. For He's there above the heavens looking down at us. Smiling at His wonderful creations.

FOR THIS IS TRUE

This one should keep us all thinking. I chose #2, now you pick one. Scripture tells us that it is the FOOL who says in his heart that there is no God. This is a true story of something that happened just a few years ago at USC. There was a professor of philosophy there who was a deeply committed atheist. His primary goal for one required class was to spend the entire semester to prove that God couldn't exist. His students were always afraid to argue with him because of his impeccable logic. Sure, some had argued in class at times, but no one had ever really gone against him because of his reputation. At the end of every semester on the last day, he would say to his class of 300 students, 'If there is anyone here who still believes in Jesus, stand up!' In twenty years, no one had ever stood up. They knew what he was going to do next. He would say, 'Because anyone who believes in God is a fool'. If God existed, he could stop this piece of chalk from hitting the ground and breaking Such a simple task to prove that He is God, and yet He can't do it.' And every year, he would drop the chalk onto the tile floor of the classroom and it would shatter into a hundred pieces. All of the students would do nothing but stop and stare. Most of the students thought that God couldn't exist. Certainly, a number of Christians had slipped through, but! For 20 years, they had been too afraid to stand up. Well, a few years ago there was a freshman who happened to enroll. He was a Christian, and had heard the stories about his professor. He was required to take the class for his major, and he was afraid. But for three months that semester, he prayed every morning that he would have the courage to stand up no matter what the professor said, or what the class thought. Nothing they said could ever shatter his faith...he hoped. Finally, the day came. The professor said, 'If there is anyone here who still believes in God, stand up!' The professor and the class of 300 people looked at him, shocked, as he stood up at the back of the classroom. The professor shouted, 'You FOOL!!! If God existed, he would keep this piece of chalk from breaking when it hit the ground!' He proceeded to drop the chalk, but as he did, it slipped out of his fingers, off his shirt cuff, onto the pleat of his pants, down his leg, and off his shoe. As it hit the ground, it simply rolled away unbroken. The professor's jaw dropped as he stared at the chalk. He looked up at the young man, and then ran out of the lecture hall. The young man who had stood, proceeded to walk to the front of the room and shared his faith in Jesus for the next half hour. 300 students stayed and listened as he told of God's love for them and of His power through Jesus. You have 2 choices: 1. Delete this and never look at it again. 2. Pass this along to your Christian and non-Christian friends, giving them encouragement we all need every day. When you choose option 2, you have chosen to STAND UP In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke, it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking............. Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell. Isn't it funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says. Isn't it funny how everyone wants to go to heaven provided they do not have to believe, think, say, or do anything the Bible says. Or is it scary? Isn't it funny how someone can say 'I believe in God' but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also 'believes' in God). Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, But when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing. Isn't it funny how the lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene pass freely through cyberspace, but the public discussion of Jesus is suppressed in the school and workplace. Isn't it funny how someone can be so fired up for Christ on Sunday, but be an invisible Christian the rest of the week. Are you laughing?! Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them. Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me. Will YOU pass this on? I did .

ANOTHER LAME THING

ALICIA: ZINA! Let's take photos!

ZINA: Why?

ALICIA: Cos, i want too lorhs then?

ZINA: Why?

ALICIA: Feel like mahs.

ZINA: Why?

ALICIA: Cos, today i very happy!

ZINA: Why?

ALICIA: Can you stop saying why?

ZINA: Why?

ALICIA: ZINNAAA NGGGG!!

ZINA: Why?

ALICIA: Nevermind.

LALALALALALLLALALALALAS!

SOMETHING THAT'S REAL LAME

THIVIYAA: Zina, why you staying back in school for?

ZINA: For history project.

THIVIYAA: Why?

ZINA: Cos next week must pass up.

THIVIYAA: Really?

ZINA: Yeahs, why would i lie about such a thing like this?

THIVIYAA: I don't know.

ZINA: Yeahs, okays. Whatever.


END OF CONVERSATION (:

SCHOOL HAVE BEEN BETTER (:

School have been better today (: Everything should have been settled now, almost. I feel like quiting tuition. Cos tuition hmwk is hard to find time to do. My tuition teacher gives me so much stress. Cos she gives herself too much of stress and pass me more, cos she says i don't seemed to be studying! I really hate studying infront of people. Except friends. Cos they accompany me when studying right? SO i HAVEE to study in front of people. And i like studying in darker places, like sitting under s table. Cos i find it more relaxing rather then a table with stuff all over the place (: i know it's weird. But that's me! No ones like me right? I' mean you can find a person that almost excalty like you. Actually you can find 7. That what i read about in some book (: HEEEHES (: The hyperness i used to have as a best friend is climbing up onto me today. I have been much happier though i still worry about some of my friends. Cos they are so stressed up, that they cry everyday. Which makes me worry alot, That sometimes i have fever, headache, stomachache, and i vomit every so often. I know it weird. But i really have them sometimes all at once if the thing was really very serious. But i guess at home, problems are still ocurring, but i'm real glad my mum bf's is introuducing her to his company. SO that my mum can work and not sit there and play computer games everyday. TIll 4am in the morning (: real glad. I can't wait to tell CHARLENEEE! (: HEEHES. ANYWAYS i don't have dinner tonight. I might go and find some chips to eat. (: i know i m tring to lose weight. But yeahs. OHHS YEAHS i'm off chocolates and chips till valentine day (: HAAHAS. HEEHES. Buh byes then. I sooooo sleepy (: Although, i not going to sleep. HEEHES. i just like nothing to say. But i can say that i'm worried for bernita (: I prayed for her. WHOLEHEARTEDLY (: ANYWAYS I REALLY GONNA END OFF THIS TIME>.<>

I REALLY THINK THIS IS TOO MUCH

What m i suppose to do now? I have been stoning the whole day! Cos of all the troubles in my mind. My friends think i ain't acting right. I guess i'm really retarded when i'm me huh. That's freaky!! I don't want to be retarded, like really mental in the brain or something. But i don't mind acting as one! Cos it's fun! I took so many pictures today with my friends! You go see my friendster page. I going to upload it soon! I will try, cos ii'm currenlty rushing this DAMN history homework. Some family tree, i don't really like doing stuff like this, COS IT TAKES SO MUCH TIME! I ain't a free person, OHHS NO. I still have to some maths tuition homework. OHH MAN. This sucks. TROUBLED i'm. HOW M I SUPPOSE TO DRAW MY GRANDMOTHER? i don't know. white hair that goes curly all around? My grandparents are divorced. I rarely see my grandfather. Actually i don't even know how he looks like, but i know he's still alive somewhere on Earth now. This is ridiculus. Anyways i get to do lesser. Cos i only have a mum, so i only need to do my mum's side. HEEHES! Good for me when it comes to this kind of thinggs yeahs (: Anyways i HAVE TO RUSH IT OUT BY TONIGHT. COS TOMORROW'S THE DATE LINEE! so Buh Byes.
Yourrrr very crazy friend.

AND ZINA died. Mentally just now.
HEEHES!

LIFE IN SCHOOL HAVE BEEN A B****

Many things have happened today in school. There was laughing as usual, my friends being called out during slient reading to have a 1-1 conversation with form teacher. DAMN THAT TEACHER. How dare she offend my friend. So what if people sulk. Unless she doesn't sulk. Then i will change my name to 'sushi'. How can you judge people by how they look? How could you say that my friend wasn't a good natured person? Even if she wasn't a good natured person. Did you have to say it out LOUD? Didn't your parents teach you manners? It's called RUDE in case you never heard of it before. Anyways, troubles having been stirring up. And once again i'm offically the 'middle person' i think i should become counsluer next time or something. I mean, troubles are like part of my life now. People come to me. Naturally, cos my ears have gone for training before (: there are one good pair of ears i can say. Don't you dare steal 'em from me! Kiddings. Anyone can look for me. To vent anger on, or jus listening. Or hugs, cos i simply love'em (: HEEEHEES (: It's just that sometimes although i come up with all these thoeries. It's way easier to say 'em ( but that doesn't mean it's easy to come up with em.) But applying them into life is harder then ever. Cos i tried, my best. For everything, in my life. But sometimes, well most of the times. Everything goes wrong. All BING BANG BONG. Here and there. I really wonder sometimes. Why we work so hard everyday. When we are going to die in the end. I really wonder..

MY FRIENDS HAVE TRUELY MADE A DIFFERANCE IN MY LIFE (:

THIS IS TOO ALL MY FRIENDS IN THE WORLS WHO HAD MADE A DIFFERENCE IN ME (:

Love is great. For you have given it to me.
Hope is wonderful. For you have given it to me.
Care is extradionary. For you have given it to me.
For everything you have done. I just want to thank you.
For if i didn't have you. I would have died.
God have redeemed my soul. And i will have eternal life.
So thank you. For all you have done for me (:

ZINAA NG (:

HAHAHAS (: JUST A RANDOM TOPIC.

I'm SOOO IRRATATED. EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING TOO FAST. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORES! THINGS HAVE BEEN HAPPENING. I DON'T WANT 'EM TO HAPPEN. WHY MUST THEY HAPPEN? WHY WHY WHYYYY?! BUT GOD HAVE PLACED ME HERE FOR A REASON. AND AS A CREATION OF GOD. I HAVE TO RESPECT HIM, AS HE IS MY FATHER. IN HEAVEN. HE WILL WATCH OVER EVERYONE. ON EARTH. FOR GOD IS MIGHTY AND WORTHY FOR OUR PRAISE.

SCHOOL HAVE BEEN BUSY AS EVER!

At first, my file for school was really thin. All it had was just fool scap paper. Now it's filled with notes, hmoework, forms and notices. It has been really crazy around school. Many things have happen. I'm really busy now. And my mum gives me alot of preasure. Cos she says she doesn't see me studying. Yes, i admit. I hate studying in front of her. It's makes me look guai. Like she have really teached me well. When it's not true. In her life, there is really no such word as FAIR. Cos everyday. She just like. Play computer games! It's really irratating. I can't stand it sometimes. Well most of the time. I really hate it. She treats me ever so nicely in front of people. And i just act along, cos i don't want to be questioned by her. She treats everyone like maids. As in like those people she knows. Especially that boyfriend of hers. She asked him to pay for everything! Do all the houseworks. I really pity him sometimes. My mum is really unreasonable all the time! Tests are coming up soon. This thursday and friday. And after chinese new year. It's really busy. And i'm getting stressed up by my seniors too. Although they are in A class while i'm in C class. It's realyl scary the way the are so stressed up! So i decided that i will treat Sec1 as a very important year. But it's really hard. Cos i hate alot of teachers. And some are just way boring. That you can just fall asleep while she is shouting. Ohhs well, i guess there is nothing much i can do. (: But God's with me now, He blessed me. As i became a Chirstian on 17 jan 08. Recenlty. Yeahs. Life have been much better since then. I'm glad. Real glad.

ARE YOU THIS KIND OF STUDENT?

New school semester

At the first week


At the second week


Before the mid-term test


During the mid-term test


After the mid-term test


Before the final exam


Once know the final exam schedule


7 days before final exam


6 days before final exam


5 days before final exam


4 days before final exam


3 days before final exam


2 days before final exam


1 day before final exam


A night before final exam



1 hour before final exam



During the final exam

Once walk out from the exam hall

After the final exam during the holiday

Yeahs i know it's lame. But it's true! I really like that one! HAAHAS!