Insane.

You are the air i breathe

that day i saw you.
Looking back & fourth, as though like you sensed me nearby.
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My love for you have never changed from the day i first met you.
It's torturing, the way you hurt me.
You affected my whole life.
Never would i want to see you again.
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Did you realised that i have always admired you?
Did you realised that i really always likes you?
Did you realised that how much have you hurt me?
The pain is unbearable, this is too much.
I must as well just bledd to death, while you stand there with you ohs so popular friends, laughing away.
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My hurt for you is like the burning fire in hell.
My spear goes through right into you body,
& out from the other side.
With bursting organs & veins.
That's how painful it is.
Do you understand it now?
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Hatred have always been my worst enemy.
But now, because of you, it became my best friend.
I hate myself for being bilnd, loving you so hard.
Now i know that living a life pleasing the men is tiring.
Never will i ever do this again.
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Regret is all i have now, i regret loving you do much.
When i wasn't even noticed.
I'm just like an old house wallpaper, old & dusty.
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If you never liked the other girl, would you be with me?
Forever & ever here with me?
Will you get bored of me & just dump me to one side?
This remain as a horror in my life,
for now you have gone.
While i stand here alone in misery.
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You was smiling there, having with all your ohs so fabulous friends.
& that's when it came to me.
That did you ever really loved me?
Now i know that you were only using me.
I knew it from the beginning.
But slowly i fell in love with you.
& now i have nothing.
Just like an plain old drawing.
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Even when you leave me, don't you think that i can't live without you.
Yeahs, you might be big & fabulous.
& i might be a so-whatever.
But i would really like to cross this hurdle of living behind in the past,
with a smile on my face.